First post in 2017

我不是每次都会在这里写下，我想要说的人。 台湾真的是我命中不能去的地方， 第一次去后就车祸让后就和老婆离婚，好不容易有了新的女朋友。去了台湾回来，有吵架不说话。 其实Dear就是我说的女友，跟了我二十年的人，我才发现其实原来就在身边。。她也不说默默的付出，我可是笨到要死的人。 这次台湾行， 她说了！ 原来我在你身边不是真的，你前妻的礼物比我的还贵，我可是白在你身边陪你一起走下去了。 我恍然大悟， 好的我买给你，其实我知道她是在跟我开玩笑，她想知道我多在乎她。 “ dear 其实你在我心里一直都是家人，不管我对自己多零色我都会买给你的， 还是跟银行借钱，你开口我一定会做到。可是你还是为了你妹、跟我发脾气，我说的没擦，你妹好自私，就因为她不能出国她就要我们帮她的男朋友catch pokemon。 没道理，我和你说好是honey moon after so Long. Why! There is another your sis in between us? I know she is ur sis, but then when I asked her" have you finish angry it been a week already" you told me you disappointed with my SMS. Actually without knowing ur sis, I and u been together for 20 year and this year is the twenty year. We know each other since 1997. I wanted to have you accompany me for another twenty year. Till we both old enough to tell our children that how we been together, misunderstandings, quarrel, care and love each other. You sis make till both of us have a GAP in between. I know and understand sibling is important, I also have three of them but non of them was again you. Dear, I dun Wan to quarrel, we have nothing to quarrel. You know me very well, what I saw and it will happen. Hopefully this dream that I told you ghost is after my Daughter and I told them to find me instead of her is not true and I dun Wan to use the will at all. But if it really happen kindly take good care of my Daughter. You r her god Ma, mean half mum. Must let her complete her dream and get her to study Hard. Any way dear: I love you.

After 9 year

生活和现实摧残我的人生。2010 年的那场车祸赵承我老婆在四年后离我而去。 2013 年离婚，虽然已经是一个人可我一点都不开心。我爱我老婆，就因为第三者我们还是以离婚收场。 到现在我还是无法接受老婆没了。算命的说我会有两段婚姻，会吗？ 工作也是我最头痛的事。从2014 年换了在换。我的妈！这一年来，我的人身体验已经到达霆锋了。 说说我的工作。第一个去的地方， 老板说话反悔我就不做。第二个， 顾客投诉到没东西可以说，说我不会讲英语。 第三个，老板常做人力部不能接受的事不想跟他同流合污。第四，经理说即使试用期到了也不会让我成为正式员工，不是表现不好是他们要从组。第五，裁员（想要的工做可无法做下去）第六个，现在的公司好可怕，打电话去第三个公司问我的事。辞职要给一个月的通知。（我才做一个月啦）请病假，他们也擦。我会疯了！请快放我走。

我发现我是个很自私的朋友

昨天和我的最要好的朋友就叫做(DEAR)吧，通了两个小时的电话。我的这个DEAR是个外钢内柔的人， DEAR常把自己装的很坚强可是内心是脆弱的。DEAR也是个注意换的很快的人现在跟你说好等一下有换注意了。
DEAR常常会帮我想好主意让后教我什么作。比如说我是个很会花钱的人。 DEAR 会跟我说一定要储蓄以防万一可我还是不听，最后DEAR 每个月会要我在DEAR面前储蓄一定的钱然后卡DEAR 会收起来。当我有事时DEAR 一定会挺身而出。就说我和HB有问题DEAR 会陪我聊天陪我去喝酒，可DEAR有事我既然没查觉到然DEAR自己一个人沉思。

DEAR 的生日我没有一次记得都要DEAR 自己打来我才会记得。我也没有一次帮DEAR庆祝过生日，可DEAR每次都会记得我的生日也会送礼物给我。我印象中有一次我还忙约会，既然拿钱给DEAR自己 买自己的礼物。DEAR会拿给我看我既然没注意看DEAR买了什么给自己。 到现在我才知道DEAR买了一只手表给自己。 我从来没跟DEAR一起庆祝过生日，可我自私到要DEAR在我生日那天第一个跟我说生日快乐。

DEAR 喜欢一个人沉思可我喜欢DEAR陪所以常常会把DEAR气死。DEAR常跟我说“可以让我一个人吗？I SOMETIME ALSO NEED TO BE ALONE”

我真的好自私，从今天开时我会注意我的自私。

然后和DEAR一起庆祝DEAR的每个生日。

这样的最要好的朋友我那里找？

最后我要向我最好的朋友说“DEAR， When u wan to be alone just tell me. I will not disturb you.Please dun hide yourself in front of me not need to do that, Your problem i willing to listen and help u. just like how u help me. i really appreciate what u had done. I so grateful to had u around with me"

THANK VERY MUCH DEAR

Working Life

Sign, Work work work.

Beaning working for 8yrs. i need time to really enjoy throw all thing then go oversea for a few week to enjoy my holiday.

dun like to work here but due to S 11. had to stay in here. Why we need money??
No money cannot.

No money cannot buy branded.
No money cannot go holiday.
My best friend ever told me she had no money.
Ya i also no money so we cannot go holiday.
save all money to go holiday then come back one big hole in pocket then save all over again for the next trip. That life.
Is a sad life, no freedom for Ur life.

Life without freedom. I wanted to fly but there any thing that hold me back.
That is my daughter without her i will fly far far away . No one will know where I'm include my best friend or my family.
I'm someone that no one can catch me in school day already the same. Use to be alone once be with someone then hard to change back. And i now changing to back to be alone again. once i had return to same as last time. And it will be the time i will run out of everyone life in Singapore.

That why i always tell my best friend if u want me to be alone once i use to it and i will be alone forever. i will go away from all of u. my life had alot of please listen please do it And please i want that . Too much, too much i every week also very headache of all this please.

My best friend is the only person that can get me out from all this please. i enjoy going out with her that made me very relax. although she will walk herself ignore me that i was beside her or she totally forget that she went out with em. But that is what i wan as like that i dun really care. I'm not that type of person like to talk alot. i like to listen then talk, and my best friend is the one that always find topic to talk. But she really dun know go out with me dun talk quietly walk also very enjoy.

有感而发

即不回头，何必不忘，
若是无缘，何需誓言。
今日种种，似水无痕，
明夕何夕，君已末路。

这三十二个字，我本人最爱上两段。
它可说出了本人的心事。

爱已走到尽头恨也放弃承诺
命运自认幽默想法态多由不得我
多年望眼欲穿过红尘滚滚我没看透
唤回了心底情宿命尽
为何要孤独绕
你在世界另一边 对我的深

寻佳人情难尽
为何让寂寞长
我在世界的这一边
对你的思念
怎能用千言万语说得清说得清
只奢望一次醉

Tried day

Wa! yesterday really is a tried day. My colleague was off yesterday so only i one person work. From Morning It was a not stop hit. customer keep coming in and out. till i don't had my lunch time. But lucky all customer not very problem case so all easy to sever. But from whole morning down i do 32 case for the pass 6.30 and 3 hour OT + 9 hours of work. drain me to die and i was like a mad women.

China actress

This few week suddenly Love to watch this China Actress Sing (LIU YI FEI). She act in the Legend of condor hero 2006 as Xian Long Nu. Hmm! her Act quite good. But her singing more attract me.
The MTV In XIN JI really very good on her dance. i watch and watch.

So her MTV CAN WATCH